Plan C

So far in 2013 I had to cancel a trip of a lifetime, I developed an injury that just leaves my leg constantly aching, my attempts at gardening left me with a seriously violent case of poison ivy, I have two ongoing appeals/battles with my healthcare insurance provider, I've been rejected dozens of times, my computer died, and now I can add to the list that I won't be going to grad school.  I think it's fair to say that I've kind of had a run of bad luck.  If you're going to the casino, don't take me. 

This is not to ignore the shining moments - dozens of great little moments with friends, new things with C (and Jess!), upcoming summer plans, my parents unrelenting generosity, etc. 

But so far this year has been, in a word, disappointing.

So I am officially not going to grad school. 

Why?

I was only accepted to Oregon - denied all financial aid/work study - did not get any of the assistantships I applied for - cannot justify 80k in high interest loans for my expected salary. 

So what now?

Plan C: Move to Colorado and pursue teaching again!

My feelings:

I feel pretty solid and positive about these initial feelings.  I know that as I continue to plan and move on, my feelings of excitement will continue to grow. 

Disclaimer: This is the most haphazard plan I've ever had for my life.

Honestly, I am surprised by my ease and comfort with the haphazardness and risk involved.  All I really know at this point is where and what - Denver, teaching - and no details beyond that.  But that is the benefit of floating without direction... any step forward is still a step forward despite how solid it may or may not be.

Is there a chance I'll crash and burn? Yes. 

Is there a chance this risk will be the best pay-off ever? Yes. 

Colorado:

I am SO EXCITED to move to Denver.  Colorado is so unbelievably beautiful and overflowing with opportunities for adventure and joy.  It has everything I loved about Oregon, minus the coast, but with an amazing friend - Kirsten!!  Kirsten and Preston have already made me feel so welcomed to Denver and more excited with each conversation. 

Teaching:

Since I was a little girl, education has had my heart.  I've honestly thought about going back to the classroom several times since leaving NYC and I feel really comfortable and excited (albeit nervous) about teaching again! 

I'm hoping to turn this year around, and I feel really good about moving forward.

I think Plan C is a solid plan.  And hey - third time's a charm, right?