I'm stuck.
Write... delete... write... scratch out... write more.
Start over.
Sit... think... stare at the page.
Do something else.
It doesn't even feel like writer's block... it just feels like an overall block.
I want to go to grad school, so I have to apply, so I have to write this statement of purpose... but I can't seem to do it. It's not just the statement - I'm dragging in every part of the process. I'm not sure why... is it a fear of rejection? A fear of actually going through with this new plan for my life?
Its odd that I want this, and I know I want this.... but can't seem to go through the steps that will get me there.
And I can't figure out why.
But deadlines trump my worries. So I'll write something and I'll submit it... I just want to feel differently about it... or at least figure out why I feel the way I do.
Is it because there are so much more fun things to do with c? I feel like it gets harder and harder for me to study the longer I have been out of school... due to other fun things I could be doing!
ReplyDeleteThat is probably not your problem because you're actually a motivated person, so I hope you can overcome!!!
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You'll figure it out, Laura! That's how I feel about almost every big decision in my life. I put if off so much because I'm unsure/worried about what to do. Then I end up not applying or doing it late :( I wish I had some advice for you since I'm such a pro at it, but I still haven't learned how to get over that...
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